its so frustrating at this point of my life yet i cant complain much. i guess i'm doing pretty well for myself being able to do wherever i want and go where ever i want. come to think of it, almost all my personal issues have been resolved. however, i dont feel content. there is something missing and i'm sure its because i dont enjoy what i do. its not that i dont make enough for a living its just that its finally come to a point in my life where i dont know what i exactly want to do and i'm tired of managing a business that i dont get much of.

i have these ideas but its just getting them down on to paper which i have found out today it shouldnt be because i'm such a wordy person that it shouldnt be a problem for me. maybe its just that i am lazy. i find myself not having enough of commitment and focus to do one specific thing. i just lose interest and drop out of it as if it never happened and i am not a part of it or it wasnt a part of my life.

i guess that i really dont have that energy to go and do something from scratch because i have the high need to feed off other people passion. i have so much of passion to type out my thoughts however i dont have the passion to put it out on a very formal level. ergh..its so frustrating. i gotta live with this and make something out of myself. i'm running out of time.