the hardest part of life is when you yourself are facing it full on, as much as you try to feel for others it will only take you when you are in that very moment. All the stories you hear and how much you predict or foresee it happening to you, you wont actually realize until time has come. Thus, I refuse to let myself feel at the moment I just refuse. I just shut it out from my entire lifestyle, but every time my phone buzzes i get the creeps right down my spine. I take a deep breath hoping that all is well.

Silence is the best remedy for any situation as no news is more likely good news. Sit here as silent as I may I know that if i let this silence go I will fall apart and the drama will begin. This is not some love story crisis or some I am hopeless cry. This is the silence of knowing that no life is worth this much to me and no story will be told like yours.