you want to be there you want to be here too

as much as you need to be here you need to be there too

its like swimming in mud as the world floats forward before me

every step forward is a step behind

so much is before me but one year is it so much to sacrifice

what if its not one year

how will this matter be financially

its like so difficult

people may wonder why the daily struggle 

but everyday is a struggle if you wake up and you see your responsibilities

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