cant catch a break

honestly, i just cant catch a break! i need a break from all this! my mind is like it exploded and my brain is all over the road.

confusion feeds like a savage insde me
the fear to error creates a void
overpowering my actions, my words
ignorance? i've tried it.
race into situations to cure the soul
allow hunger and greed
yet still taken by storm
ignorance wont allow
when i feel its over
voila! its there
too strong to resist
too strong a pull to walk away
eyes so strong, so clear
actions so far yet so blur

it sucks when you cant find words to change something especially when you need it the most and you just are to startled or shocked to just open your mouth and say something. I strongly believe that words can change any given situation. I sit here today trying to make sense of what I've done, in solitude, my mind tells me to take every rational step to avoid ridiculous actions but every other part of my body is telling me otherwise. I'm fighting that feeling that tells me otherwise and we all know that with patience it will all work out.

What is this feeling inside of me that makes me so WTF FML! accordingly to someone who claims to be very experienced its : agony.....so then Why walk into a wall when you know its going to hurt? The answer I got was :hahaha.. because you hope for a miracle... and voila! there you have it!

ok who am i to complain i have been very blessed so far!