my presence is almost zero
is this even possible
i need help through this

i begin to wonder how am i going to get through this.

why am i doing this? sometimes i think its just because i am selfish but at other times i feel that its really not me who is selfish because if i were to do everything my way, i would not be sitting here in this state right now.

i know i have to deal with it. every single bit of it.