well well here i at 6am in utter disappointment what can i say
i have been through kinda a lot but who the fuck cares
i just wanna go home ~ for all i've done i think i deserve this
i've earned it but ~ what say you?
things will nvr be the same for me ~

you know
i had ice cream but i was greedy so i put chocolate syrup on it then i was even greedier i put sprinkles on it then i put smarties in my ice cream yet still i wasn't satisfied finally i put oreos in it and in the end what i had had melted ..sitting in awkward silence its jaw dropping to me...
if only anyone could read this and know what i was expressing and addressing it would plaster a cynical smile.. this is my ulterior way in reaching you if only you knew how to read these words...if only you knew that you was referring to you......

at night thoughts haunt well...
well its a sickness that i have and i don't think i can afford to cure myself

shocking to know that i am so helpless to myself now..times are bad...tho i'm doing great in uni and work wise, i dont know what is it going to take to bring things back to the same lvl it was..like everything..