if only someone could hear me

what has become of me.. can anyone tell me... can anyone help me........

my thoughts are lost.. i've tried my best to do everything i can... but i still fail ...

i feel like a loser la.. i dont know what to do.. initially i thought i would be okay because i didnt expect things... you know stuff.. like whatever etc etc.. the only reason i decided to go back was because i already calculated that everything would be right.. but then my mum had some problems and.. sigh.. everything just crumbles doesnt it when its the hardest time of ur life..

and i cant tell anyone cos no one would listen or rather i dont dare...

i just cant explain myself to anyone I JUST FEEL NO ONE SUPPORTS ME AND EVERYONE QUESTIONS ME AND JUDGES AHHHHHHHHHH I AM SOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!! FRUSTRATED..........................why when i say they must question and say this and that OK I AM EDI DOING MY BEST OK FOR everyone. why u cannot just stand and support meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee if i can or cant make it ..i just am asking for some support.

in the end also no ppl will hear me out.. you know why no matter who they are when i start telling they already jump to conclusions thats why i cant tell my family i cant tell anyone..

PLS JUST STOP THIS THIS... THIS MEANS CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT EVERYTHING I DO I TRY CANNOT CANNOT..

all i am asking is just for a little support pls just give it to me pls not just get all hoo ha about it.. if in the first place if anyone was just a little supportive this problem would not have even surface..

whatever i am putting meself through well its hard on me.. no mater how calm and relaxed i might seem or how strong a face i hold in front of you when i am alone i crumble... but i just cant let anyone see me in this condition...
and only 2 people in the whole world have seen me in this condition and that my bloggie is enough...

u gotta pull urself together gal...seriously.. you really gotta...

this is the last option. i have no choice. i am sorry.