figure out my cryptic ~ random

ever so often i wonder what it is

what is it i did today that made my day so blue

cryptic in every message i send out to the world

pardon my thoughts

but what i though was here to haunt me was merely a shadow from my past

my thirst for anger my desire of joy its like two ends of a rainbow

all this because there is a kid in me that i will never give up

hence, still play like a kid

its one hell of a roller coaster ride

for one who believes will be at the same pace even if it takes a lifetime to catch up

i wish no one would ask but then listen and understand

ever so often i wonder and so often i find out it is what it is; forbearance

that drives people in life and periodically drives me up the wall

i want a day where i can tell tales of wondrous

a day of joyous dimples

a day of which i need not to angst of random temperamental people around me

in which a day i can sit back and say, wickedly cool!

~perhaps being bias to none other thn myself is self indulgence

~perhaps that's what brought me so far and now its shifting weight to people i care of....

no more self indulgence for me

if u dunnoe what i just said then just think that i'm going insane its a notch away from what i mean hahahaha...